Trust - Part One

What is the biggest thing you are trusting God for?  If you are like me, it is also what you are worrying about the most.  If I am honest, and I did promise to be an honest blogger, I confess that I am worrying a great deal about the biggest thing I am trusting Him for.    

You see, my amazing, beautiful, little girl believes that if her own birth mother didn't want her, then why would anyone else want her?  She feels thrown away, wondering why, if her Chinese mother could only keep one child, then why didn't she pick her?  Feeling unworthy and abandoned are the current lenses in which my daughter views everything, including herself.  Like any good, self-respecting mother would do, I have fervently tried to fix this, but I can't.  

Enter worry.  

Or, enter trust.  

This is the beginning of my "trust" journey because I know who can fix this.  While I am profoundly worried about my sweet girl, choosing to trust will prevail in the end.  My beautiful girl will one day see herself the way God and everyone else does.  I have found a place to start:

"Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own.  Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He's the one who will keep you on track." (Proverbs 3:5-6, The Message)

Trusting,  L.

MycooldogPax & Reassurance

It appears that only my son Harrison and I can hear MycooldogPax talk.  Pax says things like, "I didn't do it", "I love you", and my personal fave, "Dang it!" when he gets caught doing something humans consider naughty.  You see Pax thinks that if he's not looking at you then you can't see him.  (Reminds me of when Harrison was little.  He would tightly cover his eyes with both hands and yell, "Mom!  Come find me!"  Please visualize that, you will not be disappointed.)  So, back to Pax, this precious tail-wagger has taught us so much, even things about God.  Think unconditional love, adoption, loyalty, forgiveness, and a deluge of other amazing qualities.  I find beauty in our four-legged friend as he humbly approaches us wanting reassurance that he's still loved after he's made a poor choice.   Isn't that what we all need?  Reassurance that we are loved after our poor choices?  Beauty comes in the qualified arms of a Father who provides a profusion of reassurance of His love for us. This fills my heart with gladness.  It will fill yours too.  Thanks for reading, L.  

BEST. PIZZA. EVER.

This foodie has searched high and low and far and wide for the perf pizza crust.  I believe I have hit the motherload and I couldn't wait to share it with you.  It makes a lot, but freezes beautifully.  It may appear a little high maintenance, but it is pizza after all.  Repeat after me, "Slow food is good food."  It's perf for this time of year, movie and pizza night anyone?  Make this pizza click here and you'll be speaking Italian in no time, la mia pizza gusta migliore della sua pizza!  Molto delizioso!  (My pizza tastes better than your pizza!  Very delicious!)  See?  Enjoy it, it's nums!  Thanks for reading, L.

It's official: Hello my name is Leslie and I have a blog.

Scarcited.  You should know that I make up words ALL the time.  I think this one was birthed with Ashley.  (Love you Ash!)  Scarcited is feeling scared and excited all at once.  That is how I feel about this blog.  You should also know that I like to get all my disclaimers out of the way.  I am not a professional writer.  I refuse to sugar coat things and I will always be honest.  I am going to write on a plethora of topics such as food, Africa, mom things, wife things, friend things, Jesus, adoption, MycooldogPax (Did you see our hecka cute pic together?), messy things, and heartache.  I loathe long posts, seriously, who has time?  And lastly, the purpose of this blog: I am on a personal mission to find beauty, every day, in every thing because, I believe beauty leads to gratitude and gratitude leads to the presence of God, which I am desperate for.  I can honestly think of nothing better.  While it is a personal mission, I invite you to come along any time.  "He hath made every thing beautiful in His time."  Ecc. 3:11 (KJV)  Thanks for reading, L.